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MONDAY MUSINGS

I couldn’t sleep last night, my mind could not shut off. I was thinking of all the things I need to do, and want to do. The things that worry me and the things that are out of my control.  As I tried unsuccessfully to sleep my good friend Brandy’s son Silas took his last breath. I woke up and my weight is holding steady at 170, but none of that matters today.

I first met Brandy when I was working in a restaurant in Palo Alto, and she was visiting so Silas her son could get treatment at Stanford University. We quickly hit it off, and I was honored to meet Silas as well. Their story of love inspired me through my many moves. Brandy-continued to really live life as she cared unselfishly for her terminally ill son. She was out doing fun runs with friends, seeing concerts, volunteering, and being the driving force for the wellness of her son. She was an optimist and an advocate. There was nothing she wouldn’t do for the care of her son. I admire her deeply and this blog post is dedicated to her. 

People have told me I’m strong and inspiring, and I’ve been through a few challenges in the last two years; but nothing like Brandy. I can fall apart at the thought of my cat being possibly ill. It was those thoughts, pet insurance etc that kept me from my beauty sleep last night. I woke to the news that Silas had passed away. All of a sudden losing a nights sleep to anxiety didn’t matter. My heart goes out to Brandy, my prayers for her and her son Jake as they navigate their new normal without Silas. They say when someone passes they earn their wings, I hope Silas is playing with the angels with abandon. In my heart Brandy has earned her wings too. There are angels who walk among us, and my friend Brandy is definitely one of them. So much love Brandy. 

 

 

RICHARD SIMMONS VIDEO SHOOT TOMORROW

Today seemed like it was the longest day ever. I went to the Dr. and got the go ahead with my workout plans, went shopping for new workout gear which I have not done in one year. That is a tough one when you are beginning, easy when you start to feel the results of your hard work. Getting over that first hump is the hardest leap to take. Tomorrow I am shooting a DVD with Richard Simmons. I am hoping to get a photo with Mr Simmons. I will tell all tomorrow after the video shoot. I feel it is the perfect beginning to my quest, as he has inspired people for years to be healthy and active. My Mother once said I will live to be 200, and I want to be as healthy as possible and prove her right.

This week I plan on weighing in at Weight Watchers, and I will post my beginning weight. I am a few days late because I was ill but I am starting to feel like my old self again. I will also post a before full body photo or two. I know photos of my face are deceiving, so I will make sure to post those photos by Friday. That is the hardest part in this journey, coming clean and admitting my flaws. Knowing I am helping others in the process takes away the fear of putting myself out there. I am done with fear, and will not have any regrets from here on out. A friend of mine passed away last night, and that reminder of the fragility of life puts everything into perspective. Our time here is short, and I intend to make every precious moment of mine count…living passionately about everything that I am about.  As my late lovely friend Chris Dickerson would say, and so…..goodnight.
Namaste’
Rose