Photo Linda Monteleone’ My Mood this morning My optimism is shrouded in a veil of grey Just for today I am Human Afterall

Good morning to all, I am so happy it is Friday. I woke up, brewed my coffee and got on the scale with high hopes. I feel lighter, but that damn scale said I stayed the same. Still holding at 20 pounds. I am so frustrated I could scream, but instead I will try to address the issue and forge forward. I need to make it to the New Year with a few more pounds off. I am not splurging at all.  Come to think of it, I noticed the last few days I am not eating that much. I bet I am hovering at about 1,000 calories a day, not good. I always forget eating too little will stall your weight loss. I am reconsidering splurging on Christmas Eve and Christmas. I may start a food journal again and track my points, it helps me to make sure I am eating enough.

Eating too much, eating too little, dieting feels like a science experiment and I am the lab rat. I am grateful for how far I have come, I am 30 lbs lighter than I was at this time last year but I want to go all the way, and I am so competitive with myself and lately I feel like I am letting me down. Or that is how I feel at this particular moment. This fleeting feeling will pass, and I will take this as a challenge to work harder. I am buying a pedometer with a heart monitor so I can track how far I run and walk and get my heart rate up. Also, I am going to go to the gym and have my fat and measurements done. I will post those as soon as I have the chance to check. I have to hang in there, and work even harder.  I will work out like a fiend tonight. I wish my glands did not feel swollen.

Ok , so a second cup of coffee is needed. I am hoping it is a short shift so I can run before the sun goes down, today the high is going to be only 64. 
I feel like crying or screaming just a little.
Breathe in, breathe out.
I need to meditate.
Namaste’
Rose