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STARTING OVER

Happy Thursday and happy health to all.

I had an epiphany yesterday. I have been held back by my ego, my vision and memories of all my weight loss success I had on this blog. I was really doing it, than life literally kicked me in the caboose.

To move forward I have to realize it is for my health and fitness, and accept I slipped. I need to quit focusing on my appearance and do it because it is what I love and the end reward is health. Of course looking great is a bonus but I am not going to put the emphasis on my appearance. Looking at photos from one year ago just makes me sad and stagnate. I finally had my husband James take new before photos and I plan to really get to work on my fitness. These are the only before photos I will take for three months. 

It has been a year and I gained thirty of the sixty pounds I lost. I also lost my fit body because honestly I have not lifted a weight in a year and my cardio sessions have not been consistent. I own it all and now I am starting completely brand new. This blog is now my new journey with my starting weight of 188 lbs.

We got some bad news the past week,more than one bout with bad news. That’s the thing about bad news when it is about other people than yourself, you have to keep it private even on a public forum as a blog. So not only am I starting over, I am starting over after life decided to kick but again. It is ok, kick me down and I will stand back up. 

My tools for working out this time around are simple. Melissa Bender Fitness, my hubby James who works out daily, and the gym and pool where I live. Everything else is up to me this time around. Making it happen this time after all of the challenges is going to mean so much more. I am not yet on hypothyroidism meds and I am trying to tackle this without it for now.

Here are the photos, no more shame. I own this and will succeed round two. I admit looking at these brings tears to my eyes. That is motivation enough to push hard. Thank you to all for the support and I hope I can start losing weight again and help some charities along the way. Love, light and truth. 

PERFECT TIMING

Sudden changes are just adventures we didn’t write on our bucket lists.

Rose Bruno Bailey

Perfect timing, In the past I had a habit of putting off things I really wanted to do, because I felt the timing was off. You decide to start a fitness/weight loss journey and life takes an unexpected detour. What do you do? Do you decide to continue on and work on your goals during your personal crisis or do you wait for a better time?  

The thing with time is, we all think we have all of this extra time. Are we chasing time or is time chasing us? So life has a way of grabbing you by the neck and choking you until you feel like you cannot breathe. I have been there, everyone has been there. At the same time life can be the most exhilarating experience.

Don’t wait to start your healthy lifestyle. Time will pass anyway, and your crisis will also pass. I am sure you will feel a lot better when your crisis is over and you are healthy and fit vs possibly creating a health crisis because of the poor habits you followed when everything was not going your way. You do not need to create another crisis, one at a time is enough. Some things in life we can control. I feel exercise and eating healthy keeps me healthy and in control. Today is my day three and I weigh in next Wednesday. Weigh in Wednesday is my day I am accountable for my weekly actions. No matter what life brings at me, I will be losing weight again.

I have a dear friend in Texas, she is actually my lifeline here. We met when my hubby James and I were Ubering home from the vet with our cat Rascal; she was our driver. We had just received bad news. I ended up exchanging information with her and we became fast friends. We are both Author’s and we cheer each other on. For me living in Texas she is a game changer. Sometimes something wonderful happens even in our darkest moments. Perfect timing on a not so perfect day. The sun will rise,it always does. Follow the glimmer of light and don’t ever give up on yourself. 

Love and Light

Rose

 

EMOTIONAL EATING

Hello to all. On this Wednesday I send everyone a big midweek hug. If you are starting a weight loss/fitness/health journey, congratulations. Just remember, you are beautiful now as you strive to become healthier you. Age, weight doesn’t matter. You got this.

Today I wanted to cover the topic of emotional eating. I really slayed every life problem and kept losing until I lost my Mother and our beloved cat Rascal. Everyone has a breaking point. That was mine, and I gained half of my weight back. No shame in my gain, I have faced it and now I am on the path to fitness and health; round two. I will be sharing my fitness and food plans in future posts, and a new before photo. I remember the first time in 2013 when I began my first weight loss journey, taking the before photo was liberating.

Left 2013, right 2017. I will be back to where I was on the right. New photos soon.

I hope to feel that empowerment again this time, and the happiness when I start to change my physical body for the better. I am all about mind and body so working on my mind is a major part of the equation. 

Back to emotional eating. You get into your healthy lifestyle and you get bad news. Life has struggles, the yin and yang. You hear of someone who is ill, your job is having stresses, physically maybe you are under the weather. The struggles can be massive or they can be little but there is no doubt struggles can put a strain on your willpower.

My advice is to keep going, eat your healthy food and do not give in. If you must eat something off program portion it out and work it into your calories for the day. Balance is key. I use the Loseitapp. It is free and I can keep my food diary to see how I am doing. I started it yesterday and I am tracking everything, including my water. It helps me stay the course. Don’t forget to get moving too, nothing helps you deal with the little nuances of life like exercise. I call it Mobile Meditation.

Track so you do not binge. If you bite it, write it. If you snack it, track it. I know some people do not like to keep a food diary and that is ok to. Everyone is different and everyone knows what works for them. For me it helps me be accountable. Whether you like to track or not, I bet you never felt good or empowered after a binge. Why do we abuse our bodies like that? 

Weight loss, like any thing we dedicate ourselves to, is a mindset. Today is my day two. I am so happy to be here and have the opportunity to find my healthy self again. Don’t you love second chances?

Happy Wednesday

Love, light, and healing for those who need it

Rose

WEIGH IN

Today was my weigh in, and I am happy to say I lost 5 lbs. I stayed on track, ate mostly clean and I kept my calories between 1,200 and 1,400. It was a challenging week due to the fact my cat Rascal was hospitalized and it’s the Christmas Season.

It seems everywhere I go holiday goodies vie for my attention but I bought no calorie holiday beverages to make me feel like I too can be festive. I’m trying to find joy despite caring for a very sick cat, being away from my beloved California and if course the fact I lost my Mother six months ago. She was the best when it came to Christmas and my heart is so heavy as my December birthday and Christmas approach.

I find myself in new territory, sadness has never been part of my repertoire. With that said, I’m losing weight again because feeling healthy is so much more delicious than food that makes me gain weight. Health and confidence is my priority, along with collecting cans for my food drive. So many people are sad and hungry and helping others always makes me feel better. I’m trying to find some holiday cheer.

First week done and a success. Now it’s time to add my workouts and running back into the mix. I never give up. I’m 25 lbs to go to weigh 159 lbs, the weight I was six months ago before leaving California and before I lost my Mother. My final goal is 135 lbs. I can do this. You believe therefore you achieve. 

Are you trying to lose weight and get fit during this season of joy? Did you just start. You can look at it like a bad time to start, or getting a head start on New Years resolutions. 

Let’s do this. 

Love and Light

Rose

 

 

 

WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY

Good Day to all. I am on my day three of beginning my weight loss journey again, looking through a new lens and enjoying the beginning stages. I had quite the hiatus from my fitness and weight loss goals, so picking a charity to focus on has made all the difference in the world. I am doing a personal food drive for my first ten pounds. 

As I said in my previous post, each day I work out and eat healthy and stick to counting my points and staying accountable to my goals I will buy two cans, one for diet and one for workout. Monday and Tuesday I earned four cans for my food drive and I am beginning to feel much better. Putting my focus on earning cans for a food drive has made all the difference for me and it’s the first time in months I am sticking to my plan. I am promising to do something that helps me and will help others.

My plan is simple. I am doing the 80/20 rule again. I eat low processed and clean most of the time, and I trust my willpower to allow slight deviations without having a binge. I don’t want to be too all or nothing because that often backfires. I am also doing weight watchers online, counting my points and eating a lot of vegetables and plenty of fruit. I am not giving up on grains but keeping them to a minimum. To begin my first week I am jumping back to an hour of cardio a day. My plan to exercise every day for an hour or so, and I will be adding my workouts and yoga to my training schedule. 

I have a photo shoot planned in Pittsburgh PA on the summer solstice in 2018 to document my weight loss journey. It will be the five-year anniversary of my blog and I plan to be an after. Right now I am a work in progress. I have so many goals and plans for this blog going forward, but week one is just about finding my way back. I am finding myself again and it is wonderful.

Namaste’

Rose

CHICKEN VESUVIO

When I went home for my Mother’s Memorial party I wasn’t expecting to eat like she cooked it herself. My sister’s and their friends out did themselves. All of our family recipes were served, and just like Mom did, my sisters made enough for guests to take home; in jello containers to be completely authentic. When you came into my Mother’s home you were always well fed, and sent home with leftovers.

Because I moved away I have not had the pleasure of one of my Mom’s home cooked meals in quite some time. However, I cooked by learning over the phone speaking to my Mother. My sisters really knocked it out of park it was just like she made. The food was just fabulous. It was truly a testimony of her life and her gift of cooking for others. My sisters have her gift of cooking and continue her traditions, and I’m still learning. 

Chicken Vesuvio was always one of my favorites. I was excited my sisters included it, it was always so delicious. I did some thinking, it is relatively healthy too.  Here is the recipe like my Mom and my sisters cooked. I like to sometimes add wedged zucchini and onions to the dish and serve it with a crisp tossed romaine salad with oil and vinegar. So good! 

Ingredients
8 pieces of chicken. (2 wings, 2 breasts, 2 legs, 2 thighs)
1 teaspoons salt or salt substitute 
1 teaspoon ground black pepper
1/4 cup olive oil
4 large Idaho or russet potatoes, peeled and cut into wedges
2 clove garlic, peeled and mashed (I used a garlic press) I actually use a lot more garlic.
3 tablespoon dried oregano

Directions
Pre-heat oven to 375 degrees F.
Season chicken with salt and pepper Place chicken and potatoes in large roaster pan, coat with olive oil, oregano and garlic and toss well. (I like to also add wedged zucchini and onions too).

Place the roaster pan in the oven, and roast uncovered for 1 1/2 – 2 hours. (20 minutes per pound)

It is a simple yet comforting dish. I sometimes try it with boneless chicken breasts but it’s not the same. Just like Mom made.  

I was so lucky to be born her daughter, and I miss her every day. i love you More Mom. 

Manga’ 

Rose

 

 

 

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

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Hello everyone, I am in the process of updating my blog, so for a while by posts will be short and sweet. I plan to go back to posting 3-4 times a week as soon as I streamline the appearance of my blog. 

Tomorrow is weigh in and I will update my second week of Weight Watchers, and today I am doing a run and a workout. I plan on more content of recipes, and what I am doing to continue my weight loss and fitness journey and well as new charities here in the Houston area. I am not technology savvy so this is a learning curve for me. I am in an essence settling into my new home and relaunching my blog with a fresh new beginning.

How do you like my new look so far?

Love and Light

Rose.

BLANKET DRIVE COMPLETE

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With losing my Mother and my move from LA to Houston I was not able to deliver my blankets to the Midnight Mission, but my wonderful friend Luke delivered them for me and volunteered at an event they held to help the homeless. I am beyond grateful to Luke. I am as good as the company I keep. He is a wonderful friend and the best of company and I am honored to know him. Thank you Luke.

Below is my thoughts about the significance of blankets to those who sleep on the streets. Much love and Light to all. If you have ideas for future charities in and around The Woodlands Texas and Houston Texas hit me up. I have more weight to lose and I would like to continue my efforts to help those in need. 

 

Happiness is a warm blanket. 

Charlie Brown

Today I had some extra time to myself when a friend cancelled on our morning coffee. It was extra time to do nothing but to snuggle with my two Siamese cats and a big fluffy blanket. As I lay there completely content to be idle, my mind started to reflect how lucky I am to have such a simple yet happy moment blanketed from all the woes found outside our front door. 

A blanket is one of those items you probably never think about, but think how attached you are to it. A blanket comforts your body and your soul. On a hot summer night do you still curl up with your blanket?  It is much more than an item that keeps you from getting cold, it is a security blanket. A blanket protects in the wee hours of the night. Even our beloved pets feel safe when there is a cozy blanket to curl up in. A blanket is warmth, and warmth is love.

For the homeless a blanket is all of these things and so much more. A blanket is a safety net from the elements of the street, a barrier against all the dangers that exist when you dwell without four walls to keep you safe. To a homeless person a blanket is shelter, a soothing hug in the middle of the night, a coat to keep you warm. A blanket is a veil of privacy, a sleeping bag, a layer between you and the mean streets. To a homeless person a simple item like a blanket is home.

This wraps up my latest Charity Project.  New blankets were delivered by Luke for the homeless at The Midnight Mission in Downtown Los Angeles. Thank you again Luke, you rock. http://www.midnightmission

As I type my two Siamese cats Rascal and Spanky are in dreamland curled up with a blanket and probably content to be there all day. Creature comforts are so important for both humans and animals. 

Much love and light.

Chasing goals and trying to help others is my aim

Namaste’

Rose

REINVENTING YOURSELF

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One hundred year old trees still recycle themselves and come out with new flowers. Recycle yourself. Know that nature gives you the clues to living.”

Tao Porchon-Lynch

 

Reinvention, I feel like I have been mastering the art of reinvention as of the last few years. Like Tao Porchon-Lynch I often look to the trees for wisdom and inspiration. They are our pillars of wisdom, they reinvent themselves but always grow more beautiful with each passing bloom. I try to always look up to them, they are my role models. I am always in the process of shedding my leaves and patiently waiting for my blossoms to emerge. 

I am not going to sugar coat it, the last two years have been challenging to say the least. Soon I will write about the crisis I was in and what is to come in the second half of 2017. My Mother has been ill in ICU in Cleveland, Ohio but she improves a little each day. I am so grateful to all my friends for keeping her in their prayers. If she can get through, I can conquer the world. This is my Mother below, at 15 in the black bathing suit. What a beauty.

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I am most proud that as a weight loss blogger going through a challenging few years that I kept all my weight off despite the changes, the plateaus, and the hard moments that came my way. A move to San Francisco from West Hollywood, a move back to West Hollywood was just a a portion of our hardships. One could just throw in the towel and I admit there were a few times that I contemplated quitting. A good friend talked me out of it, so here I am moving forward.

My weight is still holding strong at 159 lbs and I am back counting my Weight Watchers points, and eating clean most of the time. The 80/20 rule works for me, I eat clean and leave a little wiggle room for special treats. I use Weight Watchers to keep my portions in control and to keep me from obsessing over good and bad food. It is food and I am grateful for it, and I am learning balance as I lose weight and get fit and strong.

Speaking of fitness, I did slack off there a little. I fell and injured my knee and my shoulder has been injured. Tomorrow I am starting a Melissa Bender 30 day Challenge and I plan to work on my running. I hope to be able to run to the Santa Monica Pier from my West Hollywood Home in the end of the month. I can do it and so can you. Join me on my quest to be more fit and strong and to finally get to my elusive goal weight.

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Love and Light

Rose

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INJURY AND BODY IMAGE ISSUES

Happy Saturday to all. I am about to drink this delicious Cinnamon Dunkin Donuts coffee with my ThinkThin Protein Bar. Yesterday after my run at the park we discovered they are opening a brand new Trader Joe’s right next to the park. That is such a game changer for me. I can go run on the track at the park, and shop for a healthy dinner at my favorite grocery store. I love Trader Joe’s.17105711_10154962767403617_1649281781_n17125017_10154962776603617_308116148_n

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We bought the coffee at Target, and we did a little shopping after my run and walk. I was so hungry so we stopped at Jersey Mikes, and we each had a mini Turkey Sub on whole wheat. It was so delicious and satisfying and 12 points. A little high considering it was a mini but it was really delicious and worth it. I had plenty of points for the day so all was well with the world. 17105402_10154962763878617_739443869_n (1)

We stopped at the famous Formosa and took a few selfies. The Formosa is a Hollywood Landmark and I am so sorry to say has recently closed. The Formosa was known for being a place where the stars went late nights for drinks and Chinese Food. 17101914_10154962763633617_643638916_n

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I am at my lowest weight since I began my blog at 159 lbs, and I decided for fun to try on some workout pants and a few dresses at Target when I was there. I remember right before I started my blog and weight loss journey I tried on clothes at this same Target location, and they had the two-way mirror. I remember how devastated I was about how I looked, and I admit going back in that same dressing room gave me a lot of anxiety. I still have issues with body image and I don’t always realize how far I have come. I don’t think I will shop for clothes there again.

The dresses were large size and they seemed to be more than one size too big. The workout pants were a little big, and the small tank was just right. In that same rear view mirror I saw my upper arms and I realized I lost a lot of muscle since I injured my rotator cuff. I need to find a way to detail my workouts and tone my arms without injuring my shoulder any further.I admit I hurt it pretty bad, and I am not healed. At the same time I want to continue on.

I do my workouts four days a week after work and I would prefer to do the same workouts each time for at least a month, and then switch it up. I am reaching out to Melissa Bender at Benderfitness to see what she thinks I should be doing. I felt a lot of those same feeling I felt years ago in that very same dressing room, This time I felt like a failure because my arms were so strong and lean and now with my injury I am starting all over in that area. I need to get it back. 

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Moving forward. I am going to figure this out and heal and get my strength back. I am getting small but so many of my goals are about so much more than my size and the scale.  I have fitness goals, and a fitness bucket list I wish to tackle. I am always thinking ahead, but I also know it is about the daily work. I have a lot of hard work to do, one day at a time. I will continue with my training schedule that includes my workouts, my walks, my runs, and my yoga. Today is work, walking, and a workout tonight.

We tend do be our hardest critics. I will try to lighten up on myself and keep at my schedule and my goals. One day at a time. I practice kindness but not on myself, that still needs to change after all of these years. I will look to the beauty of the trees for inspiration. They are strong and graceful despite the storms that come their way. The are the ultimate survivors and our original mentors. I will pay attention and emulate their lessons.

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Happy Saturday,

Rose