Today I’m spending some time with a dear friend who lost her Father, so my weigh in will be done in a day or two. Death always makes you think about your mortality and how hard it is to lose someone you love. It makes my recent issues pale in comparison. My heart goes out to my friend and to all those who are suffering from a loss of a beloved one.
I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching lately, and I think it’s harder to face that you have gained a few pounds after losing a lot of weight, than it is to just get started in the beginning. Beginnings are brand new, beginnings are hopeful. Than you ride the wild tide of enthusiasm and it seems effortless to lose weight and succeed.
In the second phase of my weight loss journey it has a different vibe. I only gained back ten pounds but I feel like I lost some of my momentum. In the beginning I knew I was obese so I had no expectations on anything, it had to get better because I was so far gone.
Now I’m critiquing myself constantly. I do not feel as confident as I was just a few months ago. Of course stress may have something to do with it. I’m surfing my moods and searching for better waves of self esteem. I’m trying to be back on track this week, and I’m diving in head first!!
This brings me to my thoughts today. Why do we put ourselves down when we receive a compliment? I’ve been doing this lately, and today as I go forth with my day and goals I plan to make a conscious effort to restrain from putting myself down. I’ve been bullying myself and it ends today.
Today I will be kind to myself like I am to those around me. I will nourish my body as well as my soul. If someone compliments me I will merely say thank you. I am treading water to the surface, that’s where the sun is.
I will also not take life for granted. I will do this so I can live a long life, and be healthy to give back and help others. This is my ultimate goal. I will not be so hard on myself as I work towards all of my other goals. I will practice patience and self love. Even if I have to fake it til I make it.
What are you doing today to be kinder to yourself? Much love and light.
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